It has been really difficult dealing with the loss of my deviantart account that I had for 11 years especially since my hard drive died nearly 3 months ago. I lost 18 months of files that I didn't save to a backup. Fortunately I backed most of them up in my deviantart sta.sh but sadly thats gone too because I got permanently banned from deviantart. Now I post stuff on twitter, pixiv, and newgrounds but it doesn't feel the same thats 11 years and over 700 deviations down the drain. I know I shouldn't of participated in a vulgar roleplay but indefinitely suspending my account especially after going through so much loss and a rough year was way too extreme. I tried to contact deviantart to appeal it but they wouldn't budge. This year has been the worst year of my life. I lost my favorite job, I fractured my wrist, I got diagnosed with Type 2 diabetes, I got arrested for DUI, my lawyer didn't do squat until the last minute, I was forced to quit my mediocre underpaid job as a night janitor due to their shady and expensive healthcare, I lost 18 months of data after my hard drive died and it had to have the audacity to do that right before my birthday ruining my birthday, my car gave me so many troubles that I had to force myself to get a new car, I got into some road rage that could've gotten me jumped or killed, I struggled for months to get a job, I got severely depressed when struggling to find a job, and I lost my deviantart account after more than a decade. However things have been improving since this month. I finally got a job again and its a decent one but unfortunately I might be possibly getting fired again because I keep elbowing people. I should NOT be doing that because its assault. My supervisor sent me home for the day costing me 7 hours of pay and he was gonna inform HR about it. The next day I was allowed to come back to work but nothing happened. It made me feel relieved but I'm still worried about what HR is gonna say. Please don't let me get fired again!!!! Do you know how hard it was getting a job again let alone a decent one? I was going through severe depression until I finally got a job again so please don't let me go back into severe depression please!!! This year has been horrible until this month so please just let the rest of this crappy year become better please!!!!

Anyways I am gonna go on a hiatus from posting art until I can feel comfortable and mentally right to post art again but before the hiatus starts I'm waiting on my favorite artist butlova to finish my commission. After he finishes my commission I will post it on newgrounds, pixiv, and twitter and then the hiatus will start.

Losing my deviantart account really put a massive effect on me, my mental health, and my trust in deviantart and other art websites. I am NEVER coming back to deviantart. Not just because I'm banned but mostly because it wouldn't be the same and it deeply affected me. Seriously, forget deviantart. I'm done with them FOREVER!!!!!!!!